Khloe Kardashian Talks Lamar Odom Divorce & Why it Failed

"Keeping Up With The Kardahians" ninth season gives viewers a look at a distraught and worried Khloe Kardashian. In an episode of the series, the 30-year-old reality star opened up to her half brothers about her failed marriage to basketball player, Lamar Odom.

According to the clip shared by  E! Online, Khloe says that she doesn't know where her ex-husband, Lamar, is.

"Can't find him," she said to step-brothers, Brandon and Brody Jenner. "He went back to New York, and then ever since he's been there he's been missing."

That's not all that Khloe revealed to her brothers. HollywoodLife.com quoted the Khloe, confirming infidelity on the part of the former Los Angeles Lakers baller.

"When she filed for divorce, she thought it would ‘shake him up'," wrote the entertainment site. "But Lamar did quite the opposite than turning around and coming back to Khloe - he ran to other girls and got ‘sloppy,' messing around with them."

Being in love during the time of her marriage, making the decisions and going through the hardships that she did, Khloe admits she still worries about her former husband. "Lamar stuff will weigh on me for the rest of my life. The marriage didn't work out not because of me, it wasn't what I wanted. So for the rest of my life I'm going to deal with that, worry about him, think about him and want just to protect him."

Where Khloe and Lamar Stand

Khloe is working on moving on. She's got a new boyfriend, rapper, French Montana, and is looking to finalize the divorce she filed for in December of 2013. During the time of filing, rumors circulated that the divorce was due to drugs and cheating, which was then never confirmed.

Lamar on the other hand has other plans. The baller isn't ready to call it quits on their marriage, reported HollywoodLife.com, in an exclusive. The 34-year-old player is said to be regretting his mistakes during his marriage and is trying to win back his wife.

"He doesn't want to divorce her because he loves her so much," an insider close to Lamar told HollywoodLife.com.

Another source tells the site that if all the love is lost, Lamar just wants to make his wife happy and will sign the papers if it's truly what she wants.

To see more of the drama unfold, "Keeping Up With the Kardashians" airs Sunday at 9/8c on E!